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pyrostingerSo, not too long ago, somebody commented on one of my journals 'Congratulations on being good enough to get published". And... to be completely honest, I don't think I'm there yet. Actually, i'm just not sure. There's probably just me holding myself back, as it were, because I don't quite think I'm that good enough.
See, I'd tell you that I got published in X because I just got extremely lucky and somebody selected me. I suppose the truth of the matter is more like Kyell saw my work when I submitted to Heat, and he was helping out with that, and he liked my story enough that he thought of me when he was putting together X. And I... do not remember why I was asked to write a story for Holidays, just that I was and did. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy that I was chosen to be in both, and to a degree it is pretty special that I was picked for both projects. It has to be gratifying to be thought of when somebody says to you that they want YOU'RE writing to appear in their anthology.
However, I do have some issues with what I've written for both, which is what, I think, holds me back. I'm not sure either Honor Thy Mother or Resurrection, the stories I wrote for X and Holidays respectively, are as good as they could be, or as they could have been if different writers have been chosen. As I stated before with The Other Apprentice, I had some issues with that story BEFORE I was told all the unfortunate holes in it (while also saying that it was quite good, just craved more). I'll probably put out The Other Apprentice on FAif when if it gets rejected from FANG, but here's hoping.
Ironically, one of what I think my strongest stories is Secret, a story written for a contest that I missed the deadline at. Perhaps I do not do well with pressure.
See, I'd tell you that I got published in X because I just got extremely lucky and somebody selected me. I suppose the truth of the matter is more like Kyell saw my work when I submitted to Heat, and he was helping out with that, and he liked my story enough that he thought of me when he was putting together X. And I... do not remember why I was asked to write a story for Holidays, just that I was and did. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy that I was chosen to be in both, and to a degree it is pretty special that I was picked for both projects. It has to be gratifying to be thought of when somebody says to you that they want YOU'RE writing to appear in their anthology.
However, I do have some issues with what I've written for both, which is what, I think, holds me back. I'm not sure either Honor Thy Mother or Resurrection, the stories I wrote for X and Holidays respectively, are as good as they could be, or as they could have been if different writers have been chosen. As I stated before with The Other Apprentice, I had some issues with that story BEFORE I was told all the unfortunate holes in it (while also saying that it was quite good, just craved more). I'll probably put out The Other Apprentice on FA
Ironically, one of what I think my strongest stories is Secret, a story written for a contest that I missed the deadline at. Perhaps I do not do well with pressure.
